Wednesday 21 January 2015

The Secret of the Suspected Suicide of Susceptible Sage Samrat by Serpent Bite Sickness (Part-2)

Over the years his audience grew to include some important persons like the sarpanch (who became a sarpanch after receiving advice from the Guru), the local lawyer, the retired subedar saab, the employed and unemployed countrymen.
Everything was going nice for Samrat. He just sat under a tree everyday, the passersby’s and regular visitors gave him things to eat, clothing and enough money to meet his needs. His home was the local dharamshala which would hold in house preaching sessions in winters. One such wintry day in November, it wasn’t too cold and sun was shining outside so he decided to sit under the tree. He was just meditating there when a snake appeared from somewhere around the tree and bit him on the right foot. The bright winter morning became the last day for the sage and died. Some people noticed the unconscious body of Samrat and took him to the hospital. The doctor’s declared him dead on arrival with the cause of death being snake bite, most likely by a Russell’s Viper. Then his devotees took him to the local vaidya( herbal medicine practitioner) who also declared him poisoned. Then the devotees took the corpse to the local Shiva temple believing lord shiva would grant him life once again. The priest told the people to leave him in the room built behind the temple wrapped in the holy cloth.
The whole village went into mourning. People who didn’t even know him cried regretting not being able to meet such a divine soul. Just after hours of mourning, speculation started on how to cremate him and who would cremate him. Someone raised a voice while crying saying,” the holy guru isn’t dead. He’s still among us. We should wait”. This was the sentence that threw people into real confusion. Some said he’s in deep meditation and could wake up any minute. Some said his soul has gone into the other world and must return in due time. All in all, the conclusion came out to not bury or burn him. His body should be preserved as it is now for sooner or later he will wake up.
As ridiculous as this sounded to me, some reporter caught this story from somewhere and publicized the whole affair. In no time, the village lit up with a festival like scenario. A media circus bombarded the village folk with questions those peasants never even imagined. But as new thoughts kept on coming to them, the mystery became more tangled with unnecessary attention it was getting. Now people wondered, “was that snake a messenger of lord shiva who called the sage to meet him?”, “did our beloved saint died due to his own will”, “what was he doing outdoors in such cold? Where did the snake come from and bit only him? Did he know the snake’s coming?” "Did someone conspired to kill him" "Who would harm such a godly figure" "But then affable people have the most envious foes"
Maybe I was the only one who didn’t miss him. I was maybe the only person aware of the fact that his presence didn’t make any difference nor does his absence. The only thing people miss is the figure they could believe in. Well this show went on for a whole month and plagued the minds of all the folks until another old fellow who claimed to be his most devoted loyalist claimed that he’d seen Samrat in his dream. He told the people that he received word to bury him and create a Samadhi beside the tree where he sat and has commanded him to carry on the Jan-Seva as he’s leaving part of his divinity to him.
Now after a few days, the media cleared off and the regular lot returned to seek advice from a wise saint. One can say things went back to normal. Although this time I knew the backstory of this incarnation of Samrat. The man was in his late forties, I can’t recall his name Mahesh or maybe Ravi but I knew him well as a regular face. His sob story was the talk of the town a few years back. He sold most of his land to a real estate mogul and lived off very comfortably for years to come. But during this time he developed a drinking habit and earned the title of the local drunk. Soon the money got used up and he struggled to even earn enough for his day to day expenses as there was no irrigable land left. He worked as a daily wage labourer and spent most of his income on his habit. He worked when he pleased and spent the rest of the time being passed out on the streets. Sometime later an NGO picked him up and straightened him out in about eight months.
Now as he was supposedly clean of his alcohol addiction, he worked as a helper in other people’s farms. Sometime around this he discovered the Sage Samrat and became his devotee and eventually the self-proclaimed heir.

Now the folks have their saint back, I wonder how would he advise his subjects.. Will he continue to play it safe or we’ll see some differences around. Well it doesn’t matter now, I won’t be around to see them. Yes, you read right. This is my last diary entry. From now on, I am going as well on my own journey in search of the  ‘Actual Truth’.

-The humble local freelance journalist, Govind P. Waagle

The Secret of the Suspected Suicide of Susceptible Sage Samrat by Serpent Bite Sickness (Part-1)

Once upon a time, in the village of Girishanagar there lived a humble sage who went by the name of Samrat. Rumour had it that he was the only son of a very wealthy businessman but after his father’s death, he gave away all he inherited to a charity and went on to meditate in the woods in search of the actual truth. After he attained the holy knowledge, he went on a journey to spread this among other people. This story was so similar to Lord Budhha that it led some to assume that he might be his incarnation. I wondered if he was, then why did he do everything all over again?
Anyway, that’s just the words in the wind. On his path to god he stumbled upon a small village where I and some not so humble villagers resided. Although his influence over the villagers was strong, I somehow remained immune to his divinity. Even though I didn’t like him, I was not much concerned about his involvement in the village affairs. He was a smart man who had a way with words, I can tell you that. And he also kept his safety above everything else. So when some poor soul in dire need of counsel came to him, he chose the safest way. He would listen to the problems, explain about them in detail, tell both pros and cons and would just say, “the answer to your problem lies within you”. This way he never actually told anyone to do anything which cleared him of all the blame. I wondered when the poor villagers will understand that their town and problems will remain exactly the same even without him.
 That aside, I once asked him about the story of his origin and didn’t get anything solid. I probably would’ve known this, a person as cautious as him wouldn’t reveal anything which might connect him to the same ground we all walked. In his voice, he said, “I don’t know who I am. About 10 years ago I woke up in a government hospital with all my memories gone. I can’t remember a thing about my past and since then I’m travelling to wherever life takes me.”

Well he knew I didn’t attend his sermons, nor I ever came for advice to him so it was natural for him to believe that I don’t believe in him. That would be the reason he didn’t include any supernatural intervention in the story he told me. Yet I didn’t believe this story either. My best guess was that he was a vagabond with no home, no family nor any source of income so he would stray his time away in the streets. Over time, his beard grew bigger before he realized he could capitalize this new look with a few famous quotes. And this way he turned into the revered sage that he is today.
 To know the fate of our beloved sage, read the next part.....

Thursday 1 January 2015

Memoirs of an Addict


Long ago was my first time
I tried what I shouldn’t have
Strange at first but stopped nevertheless
I enjoyed it the most and felt no stress
Curious to try something new
I did it without fear, as I always do
Pleasure was the wish, the cause and the result.
Now I can’t remember
When was that first time
I’ve lost count, might never kept any
It was a routine, everyday necessity
Can’t remember when this hobby became my habit
But nevertheless, I was in caves now
So deep so dark in the bottom of the seas
Surrounded by darkness drowned in liquid
How did I breath?
Slowly I was dying but little did I care
As long as I got my habit I felt alive
Wasn’t long till someone got concerned
And showed me the mirror
My soul appeared scorched.
Now I hesitated, doubted my habit but not gave it up
But this was enough, a little light in darkness
From here reached hands which rescued me
From my own demons, my insidious foes
I tried hard, tried for long
To cure this prolonged disease,
I thought I was my own master but urges were defiant
Resisting all control.
Even after all, I recovered
Remission will continue the rest of my life
All I had to do now is make up for the lost time
But how could one recover a completely lost life
It looks worthless now what was once inseparable to me
All my precious time with my loved ones, such a waste
Still they are the ones I owe my existence to
Their love changed me or maybe prevented a horrible change
My most regretful of deeds,
For all the love I received, I only inflicted pain.



Independent Imagination


No help is wanted for I’m not weak,
Conventions are my bounds
Freedom is all I seek.
In a world of swimmers
Who go along the tide,
I for one made a different stride.
Wished to sail among waters
No fish has ever seen
Felt proud for adventures, I might have been.
But move out of the shoal  
And you’ll see an invisible wall,
Not to be noticed
But standing tall.

First you don’t get it
Then you refuse to believe,
This can’t be the end
For all you’ve set to achieve.
You see how can only you be confined
And others roam free
But their wings are short
They return to the same tree.
Doing the same thing they did yesterday,
Doing the same thing they will do tomorrow.

Occupying is the job of land dwellers,
They don’t fear lengths, area or the terrain,
They are the mighty conquerors
Who will survive
Be it the sun, the frost or the rain.
What they don’t do often is, accepting change
They will continue to build the same thing
Until no one higher finds it strange.
They don’t believe it’s possible
To create something new,
Something which was never seen before
By the many or the few.

What good is something whose value
When you realize is gone
Such is the nature of freedom
Which is seldom touched upon
You have caged me
But I will break free
The barriers of rumours,
Responsibility and judgments will not stop me
For I know, I maybe odd within
But I have a reason
To bring change to the world
To redefine the meaning of my origin
You can stop me for now
But I see the future
Where I’m no longer bound
Where I and only I wield my power
On my sky, on my ground.

I dream of getting out
And plan on wreaking havoc
Bring chaos to this perfectly ordered world
Which does nothing but contains
Its own inhabitants in non-existent walls
Made of greed, agony and doubt
Be it the invitation to my doom
I’ll still be getting out

Your freedom is nothing but an illusion
If you don’t stride against
If you don’t give yourself to change
Do what you’ve never done
Break all the conventions,
For they are nothing but bounds
And freedom is all you seek.